I've been a mom for eight almost nine months now and still have no idea what I am even doing, I'm not married but I do live with the father who is also my boyfriend. I think and I am told I am doing a great job at this whole "mothering" thing, but I still feel like I could do better. I am not one for competition, by no means, but as like most moms, I would like to do the very best that I can. I've changed a lot since becoming a mom, more than anyone could ever realize, in fact, it's more than I realize. Somethings have become easier and more understandable, whereas other things have become harder and misconstrued. I enjoy my life, though, no complaints- other than not being married, yet. We have a starter home that is cute, a garage, three storage buildings, a long driveway, front and back yard. I enjoy all of this, but sometimes I wonder if I am doing enough? Could I clean the house better, or get up earlier and be done faster? Could my son and I actually have a day of no crying, throwing up, or pulling our hair out? Probably. I love my son, and I love my boyfriend, but like most, I wish we had done things differently, and I should have been different from the start. I don't regret anything, no matter what, everything has worked out and life is going amazingly. Although I forget to eat or drink, I get everything I need to, done. I've become waaaaay more responsible than I used to be, but I've lost my mind. I am getting better, but sometimes I would like to remember why I walked into the kitchen.

So this is my life, I'm not writing a Blog to complain or be famous, just writing down some thoughts and trying to relieve some wondering that I have day in and day out. To poor for luxery, to rich for easy.